Enough

Looking into your eyes is enough

Holding your hand is enough

Laughing with you until I cry or being with you in complete silence is enough

Knowing that you love me and you’ll always be there is enough

We’re complete people in our own right, but interlocking halves of the same soul, and that’s enough

That’s all I need

 

Pursue

Pursue me.

But only when you realize that you can’t do without looking into my eyes, seeing

my smile, hearing my laugh, appreciating my brain, loving our conversations about

anything and everything and cherishing my compassionate heart.

 I’m a 21st century woman with old fashioned values; not afraid to take initiative

and kick down walls, but also a lady who wants her man to take her hand to help  

her walk over the bricks.

 Comprehend that your life will never be the same without me and that alone

outweighs the fear. That alone is worth the risk.

Free to Be

I want you to live the life you were meant to live, be the man you were created to be. Whether or not it’s with me, I want you to be free. These aren’t just pretty words on a page; there’s truth in them, but truth expressed with the utmost compassion, respect, hope, love and faith. 

Free from the hurt and rejection of the past. Free of the anger of not being seen for who you are, not appreciated for all that you have to offer. You’re a good son. You’re a good man. 

Free to know and trust that you can go to your Heavenly Father with the guilt and shame, understanding that he already knows, he cares and loves you more than anyone else ever could. 

Contrary to the popular definition of a real man, it’s okay to cry. It’s healthy to trade stoicism for transparency. It’s a beautiful thing to be free. 

Free to know, feel and trust that even though it feels like we’re worlds apart right now, you’re not far from my mind and heart; you’re close to home. You are so incredibly loved, that it can swim across the divide.  

Free to rise. Free to soar. Free to look upon the horizon with hope and expectation.   

Free to be

Beauty All Around

                 If I have nothing, I have you

                   If I question who I am, I am yours

                   When the future is cloudy, I can rest on your promise to give me a hope and a future

                   When I am lonely, I take comfort in the fact that you’re always there

                   In weakness, I rely on your strength

                  When I look back over my life and remember all that you’ve done – the love, grace

                  and mercy you have shown—I rejoice and see the beauty all around me

                  I see the beauty in you

Order of Operations

In the past, I’ve said that a person or a thing meant the world to me as an expression of love and dearness, but what happens if tragedy strikes? When my world is tumbling and falling, Lord you remain; ever present, full of strength, compassion and grace. Like a math equation, I can approach it different ways and arrive at different answers. Following the order of operations is the sure way of obtaining the correct answer all the time.

Teach me how to give my heart, but reserve an inner most, precious part for you alone. Teach me the order of operations. Help me to find that place hidden in the cleft of the rock, hidden in You, so that I may see and know your glory and the power of your protection. Show me the path that I should go to remain where you are.

In all of my life, no other love, no success can come before You. That doesn’t mean that I can’t have, enjoy and cherish these things, they just have to fall in line with the order of operations.

 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight – Proverbs 3:5-6

And it will come about, while My glory is passing by, that I will put you in the cleft of the rock and cover you with My hand until I have passed by – Exodus 33:22

 

The Vitality of Heaven

The perfect vitality of heaven came to earth on a mission of love, acquainting Himself with human imperfection and frailty. He already loved us, already knew us, but walked in our shoes, carried our shame and conquered the grave. There’s no burden or heartache too hard for Him. Mighty to save, full of compassion and grace, His desire is to draw us close in full embrace.

Who Are You?

I want to hear the magic of your stories, hear the music in your laughter. Both of ours together, becoming a chorus.

I want to learn what life experiences have shaped who you are; your joys, heartbreak, triumphs and struggles. Not to pry or judge, but simply know who you are. I’m willing to allow you to look into my heart and soul, so that you may do the same. Understanding the privilege and preciousness of such communion, the kindred of spirit that I already sense between us spurs me on.

I want to get to know you so that, perhaps, we’ll both be encouraged and inspired by each other’s world view to discover our uniqueness and commonalities. We’re on this earth to lift each other up and help each other along the way of walking our journey, so why not get to know each other?

Depth Perception

I reach out, extending my hand and heart to you. As much as you want to do the same, past hurts and rejection won’t allow you to see how close I really am. It doesn’t matter that my words and actions add up to the sum of unconditional love. It doesn’t connect with your depth perception. I was doing battle with your past, in order to fight for our future. It’s a perpetual catch-22 situation of self-fulfilling prophecy.

So my depth perception allows me to realize the distance you’ve put between us, as this is where you feel safe. Stone cold reality syncs up in my head and heart that the hopes and plans we had for the future will never come into fruition.

I will always love you. I will always care about you. I will always be your friend. There just can’t be an “us”.